Snowboy Productions Holy Bowly course
Losing loved ones
The holidays are challenging for me. I often get asked, “Are you going home?” This question alone is triggering - I don’t have a typical “home” to go to… My condo is home.
Remaining Calm in difficult situations
I left Minnesota on Wednesday morning, headed back to Salt Lake City. This drive usually takes me 18 hours. Around 7:00 pm I got stuck on the shoulder of the highway trying to pass semi-trucks in a blizzard.
Abundance Mindset
When I got into snowboarding I felt like I had to fight for everything. It was a struggle and I had to do it on my own. Other people seemed hesitant to help explain how they got where they were; the information was guarded.
Trust Issues
I don’t really think of myself as someone who has trust issues, but that’s because I try to avoid allowing myself to rely on other people. When I would work on a group project I would do most (or all) of the work myself.
Learning to let go
Recently a close friend cut all communications with me. I had been trying to reach out to this friend and after multiple attempts, I searched their social media profile and saw that I had been removed. I have no idea what I’ve done wrong and I’m heartbroken losing this friendship. The last time we spoke, we hung out at my house and enjoyed catching up together and everything seemed great to me.
Chasing Happiness
Recently I’ve been anxious about life. Yes I’ve achieved a lot, but it’s not enough. I want a house, a partner, and a stable career. Once I finally have those things, then I will be happy. Although I’m working hard on my goals I’ve realized that my thinking is flawed. I’m so focused on what I don’t have and how I think I should feel.
When Trust Is Broken
Feeling betrayed fucking sucks. Theres no easy way around it. I am still very weary of trusting others because I’m scared of being hurt. My inability to really trust others makes it hard for me to ask for help. This is something I’m trying to work on.
Setting Healthy Boundaries
I can really struggle with setting boundaries with close family. I often feel I have to live up to their expectations or wants, even if it goes against my personal beliefs or wants for myself.
How to say NO
I can struggle saying “no” especially in the work setting. I don’t want to let down my superiors or my coworkers down and I end up overloading myself to the point of exhaustion. I end up failing to complete the job adequately because I stretched myself to thin. My fear of letting my superiors or coworkers down ends up becoming true because I took on more than I could handle.